Emo Week

As the title of this blog suggests, I've been feeling a little off my game this week. I spent last weekend in Daejeon with some girlfriends and we had a great time! I ate homemade pancakes, visited my first jimjilbang, (a Korean bathhouse which includes saunas, sleep rooms, hot tubs, karaoke rooms, and a whole lot more!), celebrated my friend's birthday, and attended a "rock festival." All in all it was a fantastic weekend but the trouble began on Sunday morning when I made a call back home. I called my bestie who was actually at my friend's ring ceremony (Sunday morning for me is Saturday night for Toronto). Most of my elementary school friends as well as high school friends were at the reception so the phone got passed around for a bit. I was able to speak with lots of old friends and while I was very happy, the reality of how far away I was from everyone started creeping back into my thoughts.

I honestly don't know what happened to me but after the 3rd or 4th person I spoke to, the tears started welling up in my eyes. At the time, I was sitting in my friend's apartment with my back to my friends because I felt so silly for getting that emotional. I guess just knowing that everyone was together celebrating while I was far far away, really got to me. It was especially upsetting because I've known my friend who was having the ring ceremony since elementary school; she is the first of our Wilclay Wildcat generation to be getting married and taking such a huge step in her life. By the time the phone got back to my bestie who I had originally called, the tears were already streaming down my face. No matter how many times I wiped my face, they just continued to fall. Eventually, I gave up even trying to dry my eyes. I said goodbye in as few words as possible and I ran to the bathroom to get a hold of myself.

This emo episode set the tone for my whole week. I felt unbelievably sad when I got home from Daejeon on Sunday evening. Seeing my parents on skype REALLY helped but the lonely factor really took it's toll on me. Everday since then, it's gotten a little bit better so now I barely feel homesick anymore; I'm thankful that the emo episode was relatively shortlived. I just have to push myself to stay positive when I feel that emo-ness making it's way back.

*Think happy thoughts Amarta!*